yesterday = worst day everrrr.


nathan lied to me about what he did on saturday night. and i knew he was lying to me as soon as he told me. i just didnt know about what. so i found out and i cried at lunch, but i put my head down so no one else would see because i didnt want anyone to know i was crying? or something. whatever. and so then i talked to him about it before 6th. and i was sad. so i tried not to cry in 6th. and i won the battle.

so afterschool i had something like a panic attack? i dont know exactly what it was. i just started freaking out and felt like i just had to talk to nathan and so i called him and no one answered. so i called again like 5 minutes later. and he was still gone. so i was freaking out even more and then i knew that i had to leave my house. so i told my grandma i was going to take some pictures.

and then i went over to chase's house. just because i needed someone to talk to. but he wasnt home.

so i came back home untill i realized i didnt want to be alone. so i called leana. and we hung out. and got ice cream and felt better.

and then i talked things over with nathan. and i wanted to stay mad at him but i couldnt because i knew he felt bad. even though it was a stupid reason to lie about such a stupid thing.

inside i'm still a upset. but i ignore it.


today was good though